I'm crying, on the inside. on the outside a soon as i crawl in to my warm cozy bed. i just wish i could lie there forever. i don't want to deal with this cold, lonely, fallen world. i don't want to take on my share of responsibility that is coming... i don't want to be a burden to those who love and care about me. I need to figure this out but i can't do it on my own. I want to be happy i really do but how can i be happy when there is always something to make me cry? what if kate loses her job, what if i don't get to see joanna and julie? what if... why don't i care if i talk to a guy who is older than me? why??? I hate the questions. after that one talk with julie i really don't want to cut i want to run away. i want to cry my endless tears. i just want to be with joanna or someone who will love me NO MATTER WHAT that's it the key. there needs to be someone who wants to love me. wants to know my past present and fears of the future. this girl is sad alone and you can't help her.
an endless wave of tears.
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Find something, anything, that makes you smile. Hold onto that like there's no tomorrow. If you can muster the strength, you pray. Pray to the one who loves you and knows you before you know Him -- past, present and future.
At least, that's what I do. We'll talk more this week. I'll call you tomorrow, okay?
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