2008

It's good to talk to Corrine but I am never satisfied and it is to no fault of her own. It is to horrible hormones which have just been raging the last 2 days. I don't care how cheesy this sounds its true. I had a dream that -well lets just say, I was naughty, and liked it. I had a brief period in my freeshman year in MA where I wasn't going out with any guys but was kissing and... no sex but kinda close. ok that was waay too much info but oh well. I'm too lazy to erase it. So I am having thoughts in the worst ways possible. Like I know I don't want to have sex yet but I just feel like I need to do anything to satisfy the temptations . Obviously I'm not- at this moment anyway. I'm also going to be a little less vocal about it this time too. I hate people trying to run my life for me . I am a big girl and can make decisions and know the worst outcomes. Or I won't be complaining if I get some , ... Idk. not like that though, really. so no I had a dream that I got a kiss and it just woke me up. I was like omg I really need to do something here for the wild child part of me. I ate a dove chocolate the other day and the message thing said something like temptation is good but satisfying it is even better. I want some real love. so now I'm probably going to ask a few friends about how they met their husbands,. It ssounds wierd, again. ok so my vacation was pretty good. I went to VA and the relatives live less than 15 min away from DC so i went sight seeing. good stuff, wish I could have had a little more alone time and some different music on my ipod. I am also trying to read the bible in a year. I have started with Genesis. not much else. thats actually a lot for at least, kind of -ok bye.