I am done with fake.

I talked to a friend from MA yesterday and we talked about who she knew before I moved to MN. I don't like to talk about her but I believe Joyce did shape some of who I am, or want to be. I am different now from who I want to be. I want to be the way I was at some other time in my life. Yes I do wish I could go back and skip class in Malden and not do my homework. I wish I could do whatever I want to, whenever. So as I grow I learn that I probably can't do those things again, but I can stop talking to people who don't help me. I can stop talking to people who really don't know me. I am homesick. I realized that my home is in Stoneham, MA. I don't like talking to teens. This is who I am So I'm not going to pretend to be someone else, no to even for one night. I am done with this shit. I swear by God also that if DSS really stays pushy and won't let me not talk to joyce then the VERY instant I turn 18 I will never talk to that woman again. I can't wait just to know that I am an adult and NO ONE else can tell me what to do, nope. I am an alright person so I know how to follow rules, therefore the school staff does not need to try and enforce any fucking rules on me. I know them already, but thanks really not. I am Sasha Pearson. I am not a Christian. I will eat meat, but just for Corrine's covienience and only till I'm 18. I do not like youtube. I do not get any pleasure out of shopping,watching movies, or facebooking. I am not a teenager. I have had enough life experiences(mine and known of others) to know I like adults more. This is me, take it or leave it. I have my people and they will never abandon me and if they do then I will leave too.