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So I have a ok life right? I live in a house, have warm food in the winter, get to do things that I like like swim. So what could I possibly cry about? Well I was listening to music last night, trying to fall asleep and then i realized something. Now I just want to say that yesterday was a really good day. I got up around 6am and read the newspaper. Then I helped my aunt bake cookies. Then I went online. At around noon I went to Lunch at Lean Chin with Kate. We talked about questions I have about the Christian faith. Well so as I was lying in bed pondering the questions Kate left me with, I had a realization. Now it might not be totally acucurate but I feel like I don't have a shoulder to cry on. I took a quiz on facebook and it told me I like physical touch. This is true. I don't mean like in any romantic way, just a lot of hugs, a few hi-5's or maybe a back rub...So this just got to me. I cried, as I often do when thinking at night. I thought, what's wrong with me? I have an ok life and there are kids in mexico, Africa and other places going with out food, or adequite shelter. I feel like even though I hated it then sometimes lately, I almost wish I was back at the residential... Here's why- 1 I got straight A's in that school. 2- I had Joanna, Amy, Anne, Kitty and I was closer to Julie. I also got to see Tish(dog), Bill (cat), Brownie (bunny) and chickens. I also did culinary which was basically I helped cook in the cafeteria for lunch, and got paid 5 dollars a day. that added up to 20. a week. I also didn't have as much stress as I feel I have right now. What IS the plus side of not being in Germaine Lawrence? The only answer I can come up with is that I don't have to hear girls screaming for no reason, and I don't HAVE to do a chore day. So ya. If you feel I deserve not to be in a residential right now , or want me to stay here. then comment me why.

Sasha